urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cityxlove Andrea Andrea 2007-07-28T02:48:36Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cityxlove:75669 2007-07-28T02:48:36Z 2007-07-28T02:48:36Z suicidal tendencies; lovely. i need to start writing in this thing more, it's been forever.<br /><br />i've said it a couple times but it's really time to do it. i've got to really change. i'm sick of being miserable and knowing it's possible of change if i really do it. looking for a job sucks but i really have to get going with it, it's impossible for me to live without money and it's nice to have a job i guess. i am really thankful for the friends i have, i'm lucky to have the people in my life that i do. also, my boyfriend scott who does so much for me. while i was on my walk it just went through my thick skull that i've got to stop thinking everyone is out to fuck me over, it isn't good and it's holding me back from so much in life. just talking about everything makes me feel better and that really takes a lot of things off my shoulders. i know change will be hard but with the things i want to change, i can change them and i know that. i'm also going to get my permit soon! so happy about that!